Cracking

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She stares at me; eyes piercing,

Into my tell tale heart revealing,

“Why are you so sad?”

She asks, with eyes so clear.

I can’t stand it that she’s so near.

The distance between us

Hasn’t dulled her senses one bit.

Behind my smiling, masked face

She can see the turmoil and disgrace,

I can’t help but fill with hope:

She can be my saving grace.

But I glance to the side and see her,

The one who took my place.

The one who had stolen that position.

Against her I hold no regrets,

Only that I had let myself forget

In a couple of blessed, cursed seconds,

That I no longer have the right to covet

Her time and company.

Our friendship; no longer as strong

As deep, as intertwined,

As in love as it once was.

I feel myself breaking as I say,

“I’m just tired; that’s all.”

I laugh it off on the outside

As I wail and weep on the inside.

She stares back at me

And I can see her soul

Cracking at my dishonesty.

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Say Goodbye

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You’re too idealistic to broaden your perspective

You act like this world you are not a part

I’m too realistic to thoroughly believe you

It’s not your fault that we’ve fallen apart

I’m not sure which of us was first

To have that fatal change of heart

I do know that this is killing you

So let’s end this relationship that’s gone tart

 

I know you think you have the key

That you’re some kind of hero

Who’s answering his lady’s plea

However you don’t realize that

You’re not a doctor that can fix me

Even though I do need surgery

But at this point it’s a hopeless cause

No one can save me with all their healing

 

I’m being truthful and honest

So don’t come back and try to patronize

Win me back by telling all your lies

I know this part will hurt

But I will play the villain in order

That eventually once more you will rise

So take it all in when I say

“It’s time to say goodbye.”

Take Me Lord

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Your love is like a two edged sword

It conquers those who oppose me

Yet convicts me of my own wrongs as well

 

Your grace is like a over flooding river

It brings redemption to the parched land

But tosses me within its rough waves

 

Your mercy is like a blazing fire

It brings me long waited peace and comfort

However it singes and burns me as I draw closer

 

Lord, I want your love to strike me

Your grace to rush over me

Your mercy to consume me

Take me and make me into an instrument

Of your will, not my own, in this world

To the Text Not Sent

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I love you

Such a simple phrase

It’s a refrain

Inside my brain

That hinders

My interactions

With you

 

To be honest

I have tried to say

Texts a day

Calls unclaimed

Go innumerable

The distance

Unbridgeable

 

On and on

I lament

The text not sent

The time that left

Never will be

Mine again

Like a Train

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You treat her as if

Her heart is immune,

To the hurtful words

That you spew

 

What is the point;

what do you have to gain

You play with her body

As if it were a game

 

There is no way

That you didn’t know

You acted as if her mind

Were just for show

 

So why does it pain you

That she’s moved along?

Only now you realize

That you were in the wrong.

 

But I guess it’s to late

To apologize for that;

She’s long gone

Moved on so fast

Like a train,

You’re already in the past.