The waves of misery come towards me in waves
I stand on the shoreline, watching them go in and out
Some days the waves come, only barely soaking
The tips of my toes and the edges of my sole
Other days it comes rushing into me
Splashing roughly against my legs, soaking my torso
Today, the tide has come in slowly
Creeping, seeping into my clothes
Rising higher and higher up my body
Until it went over my head, enveloping me
Yes, drowning even now as it’s over my head
That’s how mesmerized and traumatized I am
By the waves that have taken you away from me
She realized that she was just another brown, speckled bird
In a sky that was already overwhelmingly full of little sparrows.
“Is there anything else,” he said gruffly,
“Anything else that I should know?”
Looking deep into my eyes
Those green eyes I had loved
“Shawn and I,” tearfully I said
“I know,” he said and in that instant
I regretted that this curt, analytical,
Forceful man, was exactly
What I had asked for- what I wanted.
Although the sea is my playground
The muse for my idleness
You are the moon
That controls the direction
Of the waves from my fickle heart
I don’t want to live through a thousand lives
Written by hundreds of other people.
If I can be the writer of just one good story
I will have lived thoroughly and therefore, be satisfied.
Feelin’ a little nostalgic
Feelin’ pretty crazed
Feelin’ a little lethargic
Feelin’ pretty dazed
Got me thinkin’ about eyes like John Wayne
While I’m starin’ with my sight glazed
Cause standin’ here in this November rain
Reminds me of what it was like with you babe
I think of you and the memories we’ve shared
But now you’re not here
And I can’t help but feel empty.
Sometimes when I think I’m over it
I suddenly think of you and you’re there
Again, tears spill down my face.
I know that this can’t summon you
That it’s pointless to cry for something
That in this life will never be able to share
A cuddle or a nuzzle of love again.
I just want you to know
If you’re somewhere out there
And maybe, if you’re able to hear me
That even after all this time
I still miss you and will always care.