Never Loved

Can you say that you actually loved him

With all those men that you’re rolling through,

Those comments you’re posting on the internet,

The unprecedented shade you’re throwing,

Blasting on him to whoever who will listen?

Good girl gone bad my bootylicious ass,

You were that way right from the start.

The way that you carry yourself tells me different,

You never really loved him to begin with.




Eyes Like Heavy Rain

Feelin’ a little nostalgic

Feelin’ pretty crazed

Feelin’ a little lethargic

Feelin’ pretty dazed

Got me thinkin’ about eyes like John Wayne

While I’m starin’ with my sight glazed

Cause standin’ here in this November rain

Reminds me of what it was like with you babe



You stepped down and became my saving grace,

Away you have wiped the tears on my face,

From darkness you have pulled me into this place,

My unhappiness you continue to erase,

But now I can no longer write as I did once before,

So was the joy worth it to become a disgrace?


To the Text Not Sent



I love you

Such a simple phrase

It’s a refrain

Inside my brain

That hinders

My interactions

With you


To be honest

I have tried to say

Texts a day

Calls unclaimed

Go innumerable

The distance



On and on

I lament

The text not sent

The time that left

Never will be

Mine again

I want you

i want you


I want you so simply

Your eyes

Your sillyness

Your smile

Your laugh

I long to be together

With you again


I want you so intensely

Your breath

Your whispers

Your warmth

Your touch

I long to be together

As one with you again


I want you so emotionally

Your steadyness

Your peace

Your guidance

Your kindness

I long to be together

Just with you again


I’m waiting

To be


With you


Till we are reunited

I’ll be missing you

In Due Time

in due time

The only thing that comforts me

As we’re divided by this great space

Is that the time that we will be reunited

Approaches with the turn of every day

Wrapped up in each other’s arms

We’ll forget about all this pain

We can grasp time by its slippery sides

So that it will stay in its place


But oh, what a small comfort it is

When my brain attacks me on all sides,

My family into enemies became,

All my allies have turned against me

Those who I once called “friend”

Have all run away


So, this is what loneliness is

The feeling of the reeling

The emptiness revealed

That had been once concealed

I knew loneliness before

But it hurts even more

Because I got used to

Living in the light with you


I’m attacked constantly

For myself I feel empathy

It’s becoming so hard to see

The end of the tunnel and I begin to feel so


Though inside I know it isn’t


And I try not to feel so


So I scream desperately inside

Trashing blindly about, trying to not die

Doing anything I can to keep alive-


As I cry myself to sleep at night

I try to comfort my tears with the light

That shines from your warm dark eyes

Which in my memory still shines bright

Since I can’t see them, I fantasize

For you I find reason to try

To continue this dismal life

Cause I know, that I’ll

Be with you in due time