She stares at me; eyes piercing,
Into my tell tale heart revealing,
“Why are you so sad?”
She asks, with eyes so clear.
I can’t stand it that she’s so near.
The distance between us
Hasn’t dulled her senses one bit.
Behind my smiling, masked face
She can see the turmoil and disgrace,
I can’t help but fill with hope:
She can be my saving grace.
But I glance to the side and see her,
The one who took my place.
The one who had stolen that position.
Against her I hold no regrets,
Only that I had let myself forget
In a couple of blessed, cursed seconds,
That I no longer have the right to covet
Her time and company.
Our friendship; no longer as strong
As deep, as intertwined,
As in love as it once was.
I feel myself breaking as I say,
“I’m just tired; that’s all.”
I laugh it off on the outside
As I wail and weep on the inside.
She stares back at me
And I can see her soul
Cracking at my dishonesty.